Tumbling…
I hate writing self-loathing posts because I don’t want my fitblr to bring other people down. It’s not why I’m here. But I have been in a major funk the past couple of weeks, due almost exclusively to my job. Thankfully, it should all be over soon since this gig ends on Friday. I have seriously been counting down the days for a about a month now. And after having to work over the weekend, I am now having one of the shittiest work weeks in recent memory.
Normally, I would use my frustration as motivation to get in a good, solid run. Or, more recently, kick some ass at cross-fit. But since I pulled a muscle in my lower back Sunday morning while lifting weights, I have been side-lined the past few days. And let me tell you, there’s nothing more frustrating than wanting to exercise and not being able to do it.
Without having a physical outlet to deal with the mounting stress, I’ve been lashing out in other ways. Poor eating choices have been the most flagrant foul, but I’ve also had very little patience for most people lately. This is completely out of character for me, and I feel really bad about anyone on the receiving end of my short fuse.
If I wasn’t so exhausted by the time I got home each night, I might try meditating or something to clear my head. But as it is I barely have enough time or energy to whip up a quick meal, un-wind, and pack my lunch for the next day before heading to bed. And even in my dreams I am unable to escape the stress this job is putting on me, repeatedly making the same cuts and music edits over and over again in an attempt to finally finish this show.
Ugh…
So, please forgive me while I try to get through the rest of this week without strangling someone. My intent is to keep this tumblr as drama free as possible, but every once in a while I just need a place to vent. Thanks for listening / reading…I’ll be back to my normal self in a few days.
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